Well, in my last post I told you all about this job that became available at the organization where I currently work. The position that became available is almost 2x the amount of hours I currently am working and has better pay, benefits, and hours. The position was actually initially offered to me. It was my understanding all I had to do was think about it and then let them know if I would be accepting it or not. WELL……the person who offered me the position over stepped her boundaries and offered it to me without first getting it approved by the director, and without finding out if there were other candidates for the position. SOOO…….she basically had to take back her job offer, and she then told me I had to go through the whole process of interviewing and all that because there were 2 other candidates they were looking at for this job.
Last week I had my first interview with the supervisor of the position. She and I know each other well, so I wasn’t all that nervous really. She asked questions I knew the answers to and was able to answer in ways that were very well rounded. It wasn’t until the end of the interview that I was surprised by the question being asked. She asked me “So what are you going to do about your ECT treatments?” …….I have ECT treatment every other week for my depression, and therefore wouldn’t be able to work every Friday. I was a bit shocked that she even had the nerve to ask me about these treatments in the first place, especially because she knows how important they are to my treatment and my recovery. I responded to her by saying, “Well, I was hoping we would be able to work out a schedule around these treatments as they are a huge part to my recovery and my treatment. I also wouldn’t want to mess with them because if I did that and then started having symptoms again, it would cause bigger problems; not only for me and my recovery, but for you and the job, because I wouldn’t be able to do my job as well due to symptoms.” She just rested her head on her hand, took a deep sigh, and said, “well, it’s something we will have to try and figure out.” I honestly was shocked. I couldn’t believe it. I later found out it is illegal for them to ask questions about my disability during an interview, and they have to try and make accommodations. This brought up a ton of anxiety for me. I was anxious about everything, just wondering if I was right for this job, or if I would ever be able to get a job because of my illness, etc.
After the interview, I tried to relax, take it all with a grain assault and continue my day productively. Well, I was able to get through the day, but the next couple days I couldn’t get my anxiety to go down at all. I had never actually looked forward to an ECT treatment, but this past week it couldn’t come fast enough. Then, after ECT was over, the nurse called me and said we can only do treatments every 2 weeks up until April 21, then after that it will be treatment by treatment because their schedule is getting so full they can’t schedule in advance like I have been. SOOOO……I had to tell the lady at work that was happening and that if I got this job I wouldn’t be able to work Fridays because I couldn’t guarantee which Friday’s I’d be available to work because I wouldn’t know when my treatments would be. The deep sigh, and look on her face, it made me feel like such a failure. Like I had just messed things up so bad. I hate that this is seeming to have so much influence on my feelings.
They are giving me a 2nd interview, tomorrow at 2, with the executive director, her assistant, and the person who would be my supervisor (the one who did the 1st interview). I don’t know how this will turn out, but I guess we shall see.